I can remember that day just like it was yesterday. I had just asked the doctor if I could travel home for Christmas because I really wanted to see you. You always said you were tired, but would be here to see your grandson.
I know you fought long and hard, and I know that if you had it your way you’d be here helping me and guiding just as you always have! I feel lost sometimes. I feel like I’m all alone, and I lost the only person who could love me no matter what in my life!
Everybody is bragging about how wonderful the holidays will be, and I’m faking smiles to keep from crying because I haven’t had a wonderful holiday in years. Every holiday spent away from you hurt.
But we stayed strong. I wanted one more moment, one more anything. You understood more than I could fathom, and you were my biggest fan! Always wanting nothing but the best for all of us!
It’s not fair. I’m still processing it all, and I know that I might never ever truly understand why these things happen, but I’m thankful for all of the time we did spend together.
Thank you for choosing me to be your baby girl. Thank you for teaching me how to be a woman, for never letting me accept anything less than great, and for showing me unconditional love in the toughest situations!
Because of you I’m strong! I push to be my all for my husband and my kids, and I aim to be more than average because you did all of those things! When they see me, they see you. When they hear me, they’ll hear you!!!
You might not have carried me for 9months, but you gave me a life that nobody else could or would! The definition of a mama bear was you! I really do think you had eyes in the back of your head.😂 Nobody could sense trouble or danger faster than you could!
Goodness mom I just miss you! I know people think I‘m heartless or quick to move on, but it’s not that at all. I watched you endure so much hurt and pain in your life, but you never skipped a beat in making sure that your family was taken care of first.
And mom, OMG. Josiah is everything we talked about!! He’s rambunctious, sweet natured, and just the most precious little boy I’ve ever laid eyes on!! 😭 I sometimes just squeeze him tight and think this must be what mom felt every time she held one of us.
Weak was something NOBODY could say about you, and at the end of the day you always made any wrong right! Thank you for being YOU! I’m proud of you mom, and I pray that I be the half the woman you were.
I love you so so much, please keep watching over us, and kiss our little loves! ❤️
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